Day 54: New Beginnings

I lost my job recently.  That might be a news flash to some of you and maybe not so much to others.  There is a lot to be said about that particular topic, but I think the best thing to say is people say and do things that they often regret, me included.  And all I can do is own what I know to own, learn from this experience, let Jesus rub off a few more rough edges from me, and continue to become the woman God wants me to become.  Enough said.  AND this is not the point of this post, just the beginning.

For quite some time now, really since our pending adoption of our daughters (see those cuties below!),  I have been asking God what I should do about working and being their Mommy.  Many people have challenged me with the question, "Should you be working?"  In truth, that question always ticks me off, but maybe it makes me mad because it's a question I'm asking myself.


 
So, I lost my job.  And now I'm faced with that question, "Should I be working?"  The simple answer is yes.  I like to work.  I need to work (for financial reasons).  And I want to work.  That said, I ALSO want to have a job that affords me the ability to be available to my daughters AND to pay for their therapies AND to save money for their college education.  That's a tall order out of  a job.  But hey, I figure if I'm in the "reinvent yourself" stage of life, why not?!
 
Okay, so here's the new beginning thing.  I have two pretty awesome opportunities in front of me.  One is to become a ghost blogger/writer for some pretty incredible people.  And the other is to write a book.  Both of these opportunities would pay me well, let me be available to the girls, AND let me use my talents to help others.
 
I'm seriously so excited about this I could pee my pants.
 
But I won't.  Relax.
 
OMGosh!  Like when I tell you that I'm so excited, I mean I AM SO EXCITED!!!!
 
How like God to just plop this in my lap, at a time when I'm questioning so much, and really asking Him what He wants from me, for me?
 
All that to say,  I am as nervous as all git out (that's Texan for really nervous) but just feel like this is the start of a new beginning.  And it makes me want to twirl. 
 
 

11 comments:

  1. I heard you lost your job. Still not sure what to say about that. Still not sure how I feel about it. Love your heart in it though. Learn, Grow, Move on. Carol, I'm so excited for you. Let me know how I can help you grow your ghost writing business! - Stacey

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  2. Stacey,
    Thanks. One of the unexpected avenues of blogging has been for people who are Home Based Business Consultants (like Mary Kay, Stella and Dot, Thirty One, etc.) Blogging is a great way to get your name out there, grow your business, etc. It makes you "real" to people. You aren't just a consultant. You're that lady with those two kids that are always doing crazy things, etc. (not that your two kids are doing crazy things!)

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  3. Sorry about the lost job, but as your friend I know you will conquer and move forward. However...the only thng I really got out of this post is that I want to see you TWIRL! Love you!!!!

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  4. Ummmm, apparently you do not know that when I am happy, I twirl. I mean, full on, ballerina style twirl!

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  5. Sorry, that last post is from Alice.

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  6. Uh, excuse me...Bunco dance. Of course I know, it's just all I want to see.

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  7. It's all very interesting to me as well. I don't like that you lost your job and want to question so much, but I also didn't get to start my job. It was almost as if God said to me, "Nope! You aren't going to put your hand in something I am doing!" I am taking your words...All that to say, although I am not glad about what happened I know God is still in it (somewhere) and He will continue to speak and we need to continue to listen. Excited about your new job endeavors! I , too, might have some opportunities similar to yours. Love it and love you my friend :)

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  8. Thanks Brittany. I had forgotten that my losing my job caused you to lose your job. I'm sorry about that. It's so easy to lose sight of the ripple effect. But I love your faith in all of it. I'm looking forward to our friendship. And to BOTH of our new beginnings.

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  9. 59 followers already, Carol! Woo-hoo! That's triple what you had yesterday.
    Really excited to see how this unfolds and am praying for you and your family. Love you, ~becky j

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  10. Becky, I know! It's actually more than 59 because I've had people follow me via subscription. Only 941 more to go! We've got this!

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  11. I'm a little late reading. I'm sorry. Glad you started this blog. I enjoy it even though I'm behind the game in reading it. On a side note, not to take opportunities away, but could you tell me more about ghost blogging? I love to blog and write and earn a little extra money.

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