Day 54: New Beginnings

I lost my job recently.  That might be a news flash to some of you and maybe not so much to others.  There is a lot to be said about that particular topic, but I think the best thing to say is people say and do things that they often regret, me included.  And all I can do is own what I know to own, learn from this experience, let Jesus rub off a few more rough edges from me, and continue to become the woman God wants me to become.  Enough said.  AND this is not the point of this post, just the beginning.

For quite some time now, really since our pending adoption of our daughters (see those cuties below!),  I have been asking God what I should do about working and being their Mommy.  Many people have challenged me with the question, "Should you be working?"  In truth, that question always ticks me off, but maybe it makes me mad because it's a question I'm asking myself.

 

So, I lost my job.  And now I'm faced with that question, "Should I be working?"  The simple answer is yes.  I like to work.  I need to work (for financial reasons).  And I want to work.  That said, I ALSO want to have a job that affords me the ability to be available to my daughters AND to pay for their therapies AND to save money for their college education.  That's a tall order out of  a job.  But hey, I figure if I'm in the "reinvent yourself" stage of life, why not?!

 

Okay, so here's the new beginning thing.  I have two pretty awesome opportunities in front of me.  One is to become a ghost blogger/writer for some pretty incredible people.  And the other is to write a book.  Both of these opportunities would pay me well, let me be available to the girls, AND let me use my talents to help others.

 

I'm seriously so excited about this I could pee my pants.

 

But I won't.  Relax.

 

OMGosh!  Like when I tell you that I'm so excited, I mean I AM SO EXCITED!!!!

 

How like God to just plop this in my lap, at a time when I'm questioning so much, and really asking Him what He wants from me, for me?

 

All that to say,  I am as nervous as all git out (that's Texan for really nervous) but just feel like this is the start of a new beginning.  And it makes me want to twirl.