This morning I woke up to go workout, but with a last minute cancellation from my workout partner, I found myself fully-dressed, caffeinated, and wide-awake with a good hour and half before I had to wake the girls for school.
So I spent that time listening to the Lord. The Lord does speak to us, despite what we may think to the contrary. He spoke to me of trust and my lack thereof. He whispered sweet endearing words, assuring me of His love for me and my value to Him. And then this song came into my mind, and I sang it, out loud, in my squeaky early morning voice.
These are the words to the song:
I confess my hope
In the light of Your salvation
Where I lose myself
I will find You're all I need
Sing my soul of the Savior's love
Sing my soul Unto God alone
I will meet You here
In the life we call surrender
Let the world I know
Be the glory of Your grace
You alone are God
You alone are God
We declare the glory of Your name
I try so hard to hang on, to control things. I have fooled myself (many times) into believing that by controlling my own life, I have found freedom. I can do what I want, what *I* think is right. I can course correct, make adjustments, go my own road. But the reality is that nothing could be farther from the truth. There is no freedom in being in control. There is worry, and anxiety, and heartache. There is bondage.
Where I lose myself, I will find you're all I need. There is rich, deep truth in that sentence.
I sat across the table from a friend of mine a while back. Her life was out of control, spinning in a crazy chaos and she said to me, "You know, I'm just white-knuckling it. Just hanging on the best I can." And I said to her, "What would happen if you just let go?"
All that to say, What would happen if we just loosened our grip? What would happen if *you* just let go? The scary part is removing our hands. Letting go . . .
I Peter 5:7 Cast your cares upon Him because He cares for you.
What are you holding onto today that would set you free if you released it?